Jason and I hit a brick wall with Abbey yesterday. We hit it hard. I cried. He got frustrated. Together we were a complete mess.
A few weeks ago we had Abbey retested for her allergies. I prayed for good results. I prayed for her to be well. I prayed for health problems to be His will. Then I prayed for the parenting skills to deal with whatever He handed me.
The results came in yesterday. I was literally sick watching as the 4 pages slowly came out of the fax machine. I prayed with each line that was printed for good news. Unfortunately, that is not what God handed us yesterday. Instead we have added more food allergies. A lot.
I was mad. Then I got upset for having to tell Abbey she could no longer have her ONE treat of Hershey’s kisses. My madness took over again. “Why God? Why did You do this? Why does she have to suffer? Why does she have to never taste what she has learned to love? WHY GOD!!!??” I questioned Him. Then I stopped as I watched a mother walk around to the side of her van and pull down a wheelchair ramp. That mother then wheeled a young child about Abbey’s age out. I fought the tears as I quietly begged God to forgive me for questioning His will. I was quickly reminded that I will never be given more than I can handle. These allergies, no matter how difficult, will never be more than I can deal with. God knows my strength and my weakness.
Today I want y’all to know that I am blessed. Here are a few. I don’t think there is enough space to type all my blessings. I am blessed more than I ever deserve! I’m sure I have typed this before, but you can never count your blessings enough.
- Salvation! I will one day walk beside Jesus!
- My family is amazing. I love my husband and kids. In return, they love me!
- Food, clothing, and shelter.
- My job. I may gripe about getting up, but I love my job.
- My sight. I love being able to see the smiles on my kids faces.
- My hearing. The sound of a baby’s laughter is amazing.
- My family’s health. Small problems, but in all we are healthy.
- My life experiences. I haven’t done much, but the things I have will be memories forever.
Dear God,
Please keep me positive about Abbey’s allergies. Help me to look to You for guidance in all I do. Show me Your way Lord! I know there is a purpose and I will wait for You to show me.
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I pray for Abbey. Alot. I hate that now there are more foods she can’t enjoy (Hersheys Kisses!), especially since she’s had them before and she knows they are good. But you are right, God will not give her nor you & Jason more than y’all can handle. Abbey’s a very strong little girl and even though y’all get frustrated and upset, God will work things out and y’all will make it through this “mountain” in y’alls lives.
Nieca told me last night that y’all had been trying to find a way to make bread Abbey can eat. Bless all y’alls hearts. We are continuing to keep y’all in our prayers.
Hey DR. I talked to Deanna last night and she had told me all this before I even read it. And before I go any farther…the trail mix handed out Sunday was me…yes me YOUR cousin! I feel awful. I try to be so careful when I am preparing for the childrens things but I just DID NOT THINK. We made these with the Acteens (no Abbey) and planned to give them to adults in the church (not Abbey). I can only say I am sorry for my stupidity, because that is the only thing it was, was STUPIDITY! Atleast God protected yall from my ignorance by yall not being there.
Forgive me please for being so thoughtless!
I love you and I love Abbey and I am praying for all of yall.
Great post. I know it must be hard but maybe you will all be stronger for it. (This is a crazy thing but someone told me that Trace Atkins daughter is allergic to a lot of things. I don’t know if there is any info on the web about it but might be interesting to look into.)